Wish I Could Cry Tabulatur von Citizen Soldier

[Verse 1]
        Gmaj7                         A6sus4
Built a fortress trading memories for always feeling empty
     Bm7
Lost purpose running from my pain
         Gmaj7                     A6sus4
I made a prison shining trauma and never found Nirvana
     Bm7
Sold cyanide for novacaine
 
 
[Pre-Chorus]
                 Gmaj7                A6sus4
I've learned that there is no healing in not feeling anything
Bm7
 I'm just a cage of skin that threw away the key
Gmaj7                A6sus4
 To fall apart right now that'd feel like ecstasy but
Bm7
 These walls weren't built to break
 
 
[Chorus]
                           Bm7
I really wish that I could cry right now
                           Gadd9
I really wish that I could let this out
        D
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
        A
I'm too good at holding them down
                           Bm7
I really wish that I could cry right now
                            Gadd9
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
      D
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
        A
But the silence is making me drown
                          Gmaj7
I really wish that I could cry
A6sus4                      Bm7
 I really wish that I could cry
 
 
[Verse 2]
            Gmaj7                     A6sus4
I've had to wear a thousand faces, be fake to just replace this
Bm7
Panic that my past holds tight
          Gmaj7                             A6sus4
Now every feeling's lost it's flavor 'cause I feel so much safer
   Bm7
As frozen than in fight or flight
 
 
[Pre-Chorus]
                 Gmaj7               A6sus4
I've learned that I'd rather suffer, I would rather agonize
Bm7
 Than lose the little things just for the alibi
Gmaj7                 A6sus4
 That taste of tender love is worth a sacrifice
Bm7
 I'm living not alive
 
 
[Chorus]
                           Bm7
I really wish that I could cry right now
                           Gadd9
I really wish that I could let this out
        D
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
        A
I'm too good at holding them down
                           Bm7
I really wish that I could cry right now
                            Gadd9
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
      D
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
        A
But the silence is making me drown
 
 
[Bridge]
   Bm7                          Gadd9
My life is full of love but I'm empty
       D                      D
'Cause I've been so afraid of remembering
       Bm7                     Gadd9
I just want to break down, I'm ready
   D      A
So let me please
 
 
[Chorus]
                           B5
I really wish that I could cry right now
                           G5
I really wish that I could let this out (Let this out)
        D5
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
        A5
I'm too good at holding them down
                           B5
I really wish that I could cry right now (Cry right now)
                            G5
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how (Forgotten how)
      D5
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
        A
But the silence is making me drown
                          N.C.
I really wish that I could cry